It’s 5:00 in the morning, and for right now the house is quiet. It won’t last long, though. School is out, and it’s day two of summer vacation.
At 6:00 a few kids will trickle downstairs. They don’t have to be awake that early for anything, but they always are. Regardless of whether they go to bed at 8:00 or late at 10:00, they always wake up promptly at 6:00. Someday when they hit that teenage stage and I can’t get them awake until noon I might miss this time, but right now I wish the day started just a little later.
I could use a later start because right now, I’m running on baby time: lots of nursing and diaper changing at all hours of the day, intermixed with ordinary life. Baby time also makes me continually surprised how fast a few hours can go by. When our baby starts to squirm and fuss, that usually means it’s time to nurse again. So often I think, “I just nursed him,” and then I look at the clock and realize that an hour or two or three has gone by. Without a baby’s tummy to mark time, hours go by so quickly in a day.
He’s two weeks old now. Two weeks in “ordinary time” goes by in a blink, but with a new baby, it feels like a lifetime of living happens in a matter of days. That lack of sleep combined with a big life change makes all of time seem blurry. Hours slip by at night, but a baby grows and changes so quickly that a few days can make a huge difference. In some ways, it feels like he’s always been here, even though he’s so very new.
We’ve been looking at his cute little sleeping face and tiny hands for two weeks. He’s so irresistibly sweet that I find that after I’ve laid him down for a nap in his pack and play crib, he often disappears. I’ll look over on the couch and see that he’s been scooped up and sleeping in the arms of an older brother or sister.
In these last two weeks, we’ve also had big news to digest. I haven’t mentioned this earlier because we were still waiting on official test results. However, the results confirmed what we suspected when he was born. Our baby has Down Syndrome.
It’s all come as a complete surprise, with no indications of this during pregnancy. At my 20-week ultrasound, everything checked out just fine. I remember commenting to Jarred toward the end of my pregnancy that this had been such a completely healthy pregnancy, with everything being just right all along the way (right down to having the least back pain of any pregnancy, with my sixth baby). For a healthy, ordinary pregnancy, I’m so very thankful and it puts me more at ease now.
When he was born, we suspected he might have Down Syndrome based on a few things about his appearance, and he was tested at his five-day checkup. For right now, he is otherwise doing just fine and he’s nursing well, which is important.
Because heart defects are common with Down Syndrome, he is scheduled to get an echocardiogram done this week, which is essentially an ultrasound of his heart. During his ultrasound at 20-weeks pregnant his heart looked good and at his five-day checkup the doctor did not hear any murmur, which are both good signs.
Long term, there are plenty of things to monitor health-wise and obviously things we’ll need to do to help him developmentally, too. To be honest, at this point I don’t know what all that entails, but I know we’ll be getting a very good education on it all over the years.
So, this little guy took us by surprise. It’s not what we were expecting, but I also feel like everything is going to be just fine. I believe he’s here to bring good things to our lives and we’re going to learn so much from him. We just love him and we’ll just take whatever we need to do in stride.
And truly, he’s just a part of the family. We’re figuring out our new summer routine with six kids at home. We also added seven Holstein bull calves to our little farm this week. We’ll be raising them for beef over the next year and a half, and right now, our kids are fascinated by the seven cute calves we’re adding to their chore projects.
With the busyness of life around here, we’re especially thankful for Jarred’s mom, Cheryl. She drove 1,000 miles on her own to come and see the baby, visit our family, and be a set of open arms for a week. It’s great to have Grandma here. All the little things she does are big to us, and she adds a peacefulness to our lives when things feel a little crazy.
That means a lot in a week with an echocardiogram for a baby, six kids home for the summer, and seven new calves in our shed.